<< i came so far for beauty >>

i cannot stay forever in turkey and at some point i have to be moving on. i am considering my options, unexpected options, as to where i could go next.

in my life most of what i want is to be beautiful, sparkling, radiant.

look at these pictures of people from burning man, what do you see?



i'll tell you what i see: i see beautiful souls behind beautiful eyes.

the eyes have it. that is why i have always wanted to be able to use pigment, paint, gold and red, to make my eyes more beautiful, and my soul too. but that is impossible to do with glasses. and contact lenses are damn near impossible on the playa with the dust and the howling wind. and so i was never able to be as beautiful at burning man as my soul felt.

while at the trade show with mehmet i took a brochure for an eye clinic in calcutta and have been toying with the idea, while i am over here, of going to a clinic in india to have my eyes done. today i made the appointment -- seventeen days from today.

their facility is state of the art and the equipment is exactly the same as that found in western clinics. indeed, many of their doctors trained in the west. they offer pre- and post-op yoga. they can adjust your eyes down to within 2% of normal vision and i will be healed in time for burning man.

and the price is right -- 30,000 rupees -- about $400 per eye. although it's not for the price, it's for beauty and self and furthermore for the true meaning of airline peanuts, all these things i came here to find.

and i will burn so bright.