i took my vacation in west edmonton mall

does this wash? the logical end point of thinking that one _shouldn't have to travel half-way around the world to find happiness is that it should be possible to find happiness in the MEH back home -- such as taking a month-long holiday in west edmonton mall: sleep and dream in the hotel, feast in the food courts, bear witness to the movies, fall and fly in fantasyland, struggle and strive at minigolf, be gratified by the massaging armchairs, feel the pain and longing of the glassed-in flamingos, and among the shoe stores find stillness and be touched by ecstatic bliss.

um not too long before i have to leave mo and he and i will carry on with different _phases of our lives. i thought for sure by this time i'd be dancing, jumping singing, crying. but i feel pretty steady and pretty collected. waiting for the other shoe to drop, like.