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mehmet has business in istanbul. uğur is going with him. ruçhan has left to go back home. i am staying behind to look after the dog and the cat. i will go to istanbul in a week. while mo is gone i am going to book a hostel room and find a cheap bus ticket.

i am at the house, alone with my thoughts for the first time in a long time.

it is quiet in this house. i hear air moving through the stove, but beyond that there is no noise -- no furnace, no water heaters, no electrical buzz to speak of.

i have put on music. i notice when it gets too quiet.

burning man tickets are on sale. it is already february, august plus six months. the year has started to move out. in istanbul i will find costumes and finery for the desert, blue and copper and gold. and i will burn so bright.

i miss you.